It's like a game of chess going back to school, do I adjust the basal/carb ratio or give extra snacks. Depending on what move I make will then have an impact on the move Mr Diabetes makes.
Claudia has gone back to school today. The house is a lot quieter and I will have time off from D Watch!
So why is my mind in a turmoil?
Is it because:
No matter how amazing school are(they are) I feel that I am the only one who can take care of Claudia.
Am I worried in case I have forgotten to pack her bag correctly.
Have I got her basal rate correct and worked out Claudia's lunchtime carbs correctly.
Am I on edge just in case school call.
I think all in all I don't manage change as well as I did before Claudia developed Type 1 & Coeliac. The effect is that I am far more nervous about everyday life and suffer from Diabetes OCD.To be honest I think I have always suffered from OCD.
However I have a feeling that it's Claudia's clinic appointment tomorrow and she is due her annual Coeliac test as well as her Hba1c, that just might be tipping the balance.
It's a massive challenge to keep your child healthy & controlling bad old Mr Diabetes. Sometimes it feels like I am climbing a mountain other days it's like a walk in the park. There never seems to be any middle ground.
In a way the hospital appointment makes me edgy for days before hand, yet afterwards I feel a lot more light hearted.
Even though I know in my heart we have really worked hard with" trying to control Mr D" he is a law unto himself and on many occasions he like to play dirty "breaking all the rules"!
I learnt to play chess from a young age and indeed I am a fairly good player, but I have met my match with Mr D. Often we are in "Check Mate" with no place to go and we just have to sit it out.
I have just asked Bella 6 times to go and get in the car !! Teenage deafness I think.
Well onwards & upwards, lets see what the next few days bring ......................