Thursday, 8 July 2010

It's Ok To Be Angry And Wish Things Away.

I have heard many people say, they are having bad days! It's ok to feel like that and you have every right.

The phrase I have come to hate"children are resilient, they will always bounce back and get on with it"

My answer to that is: That makes other people feel better!!

Very annoying as they don't have diabetes or children with diabetes!
Also the statement "well there are always people worse off than you" usually from the people who once again have no worries.Just because there are people worse off, this does not mean you have to feel lucky or that you are moaning.

Being honest I would sell my soul to the Devil to free Claudia of Type 1 Diabetes.Yes she does have lots of fun, but she is not carefree as a child should be, what makes it even harder she did nothing to deserve such a complex condition that takes 24/7 in order to keep it "under control".

There is never any: good morning sweetie, go and get your breakfast.

It is good morning sweetie, "have you checked your blood glucose levels, weighed your breakfast, but in your BG calculated your carbs and put in your insulin". Doesn't have the same ring does it?

There is never any: off you go and play with your friends, it's off you go," have you got your BG meter, glucose tabs and juice"?

This will be a constant until she leaves home, yes we have a good life, but I still wish Diabetes away every day!

I remember my childhood and teenage years, vividly and with huge grins, I didn't have a care in the world it was marvelous. This makes me sad when I look at Claudia, as I know she will never have that or know what it feels like.

This will extend to when she gets married and has children.I remember sitting in the bath 8 month's pregnant eating a tub of haagen Dazs in secret. I started crying as I realised Claudia will probably never be able to this. (pre-pump)
This is the hardest factual statement that I feel anyone has to live with:
If you don't take your insulin you will die.
Acknowledging that fact was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.
This is for you Kodie, If I was a fairy I would blow my magic fairy dust all over the world and wish Diabetes away.


  1. Thankyou, everything you write makes me feel better :) xx

  2. i couldnt agree more kodie....xx