|Nothing will ever stop me!|
At this moment in time I am exhausted through lack of sleep and caring for my 5 little lovelies.
13 years ago I remember one of my friends laughing when I said I was pregnant, She said "how are you going to manage? Your car is always full of your clothes. "Where will you put the baby"?
5 baby girls later, a couple of husbands, 12 years of sleepless night's Type 1 & Coeliac Disease! I ask myself. Am I still sane? Te He! I think so(just) on a good day! I call it "Mother Madness" Yes I do count my children, when we leave anywhere, now I have 5. Yes I am like a Drill Sargent getting them ready in the morning for school. It's party, party, party for the children, sadly not for me. Yes I have grown to dislike the play areas after 12 years!! Meal times are like feeding time at the Zoo. Mum can I have, just trips off their tongues as soon as they see me.So life has been fairly typical and then:
We have hit that period in time once again. Claudia is 10 and it has hit her that Type 1 is life long. On top of that she has Coeliac, which is also not going to go away.She seems to go through this period of time/thoughts once a year.
I think the annual review bloods didn't help much.She sat on my knee screaming, I got elbowed, kicked & then would you believe it she turned round at the end ans said"that wasn't so bad" Really I thought my blood pressure has just shot through the roof & I feel so guilty for making you have his done.
As a mother it is so difficult to face your child and tell them you can't make them better.Part of a mother's role is to "make it all better".
When Claudia says why me? It's not fair? I can't disagree.
When she says you don't know how I feel! That really hits home, to be honest I have no idea how she feels, I haven't got Type 1 Diabetes & Coeliac Disease.
I am left with trying to get her the best support with her Medical Treatment & at School. Other than that on many occasions I feel useless.
Outwardly she looks perfect & is perfect. But it's that tiny weeny quirk in her genetic make-up that has changed her life & ours forever.
I am very realistic & honest, which I hope will always keep our lines of communication open through out our lives.
Diabetes is rubbish, Coeliac Disease is rubbish!! Yes we do wish Mr D had never walked into our lives. We pray for the day he walks out of our lives as a cure has been found.
As a parent, how do we cope, children are challenging at the best of times, but when you throw Type 1 into the mix, it's like climbing Everest on some days & yet on others it's a walk in the park.
My way of coping is to be honest and realistic.It's hard but it's the only way I can manage everything.
I am no longer worry if people think I am OTT as Claudia is my daughter and I want the best for her.
The question is will Claudia ever really come to terms with her conditions?
My honest answer is: I don't think so, as everyone has low periods in their lives. My future task is to help her manage those times in her life.