Thursday, 3 March 2011

Overwhelmed With Emotion

A sense of humour helps, thank you Martyn for my T-Shirt.

Most of the time I am fairly upbeat and have a smile on my face. Then sometimes the smallest of things can set me back.

On Monday I went to the Dentist, I have been a little naughty and haven't been in over 2 years. The children go every 6 months!

Surprise surprise I was having toothache, if the truth be known its been aching for several months but I just couldn't find the time to go.(chicken really)

I had to have an injection and 2 teeth dressed. It was the injection that knocked me sideways. It wasn't really uncomfortable, it just stung a little. It was how I felt before he injected me.

I was really apprehensive and to be perfectly honest I had the shakes.(lol) at my age.

It made me realise once again how Claudia feels before each cannula & sensor change. Although she is really brave, to have those apprehensive feelings on a regular basis must be awful.

As I parent it's a dreadful position to be put in, we have to finger prick, inject, insert cannula's , which lets be honest are uncomfortable, to keep our children healthy and alive. It really devastate's me knowing that I make Claudia cry and sad on occasions in order to keep her healthy.

I picked the girls up from school, we had a group hug!! I found myself watching Claudia, she was laughing and chatty, who would ever guess she lived with such an awful condition that demanded 24/7 care. It brought a tear to my eye.

I find myself asking who gets me through these sad days ? The hospital no. Family no. It is the online community within Face Book & Twitter, that has become my biggest crutch to lift my spirits through these dark times. DUK page, Diabetic Mum's, Ranters & Moans, T1 Friends & all my friends a big thank you.

It is cannula change tonight, no matter what anyone says I will always wish things were different and Claudia didn't have Type 1 & Coeliac Disease.

I would like to thank you for being my friends. Being a "super D mum" is in my opinion the toughest love job in the world"!

1 comment:

  1. Hi there!
    I am a D Mama blogger, too. :) I have 4 year old twins. My son was dx'd at 27 monts old with T1D in November 2008.

    I had a similar experience at the dentist recently. I remember feeling guilty afterward for being such a baby, when my son goes all that he does on a DAILY basis. It really can hit home sometimes, can't it?

    I look forward to getting to know you better through your posts!